Insomnia and Pirates
Not sure when it was last that i updated this thing.
truth me told life hasnt changed much.
I'm just crazier than ever now, still going mad and bottling things in.
I still have urges to want to kill people, still starving myself as i form of pain and control.
And yes ladies, you guessed it...
I'm still single.
I figured out that i havnt kissed someone in over a year now, i know Christians who wear purity rings who have kissed more than me this past year!
College sucks, i saw my friends today and they have amazing lives, they are doing so well.
Ive failed, literally. And im dreading it because i know im gonna get kicked out when it happens. I'm on the verge of that now.
Yes, so its nearly 2am. Which isnt uncommon i do most online activity around this time anyway, since i have my sleeping issues still i get bored of sitting and go on my Mac.
I was watching Pirates of the Carribean 3. But then i wasnt focusing properly and found myself only watching bits with Johnny Depp in.
Okay ok, what i said in my previous entries about love. Push that aside for the following men:
1. Johnny Depp (who wouldnt!!??)
2. Heath Ledger (before that happened...)
3. Cillian Murphy (small irish actor with a big phwoar factor)
4. Jake Gylenhaal (i still love him in Donnie Darko)
5. Alan Rickman, he doesnt really count because i just love his voice.
along with steven fry, they both have nice voices. but steven frys gay anyway and bloody hillarious :)
American people have no idea who number 3,5 and steven are but oh well.
Love you all xxxx
truth me told life hasnt changed much.
I'm just crazier than ever now, still going mad and bottling things in.
I still have urges to want to kill people, still starving myself as i form of pain and control.
And yes ladies, you guessed it...
I'm still single.
I figured out that i havnt kissed someone in over a year now, i know Christians who wear purity rings who have kissed more than me this past year!
College sucks, i saw my friends today and they have amazing lives, they are doing so well.
Ive failed, literally. And im dreading it because i know im gonna get kicked out when it happens. I'm on the verge of that now.
Yes, so its nearly 2am. Which isnt uncommon i do most online activity around this time anyway, since i have my sleeping issues still i get bored of sitting and go on my Mac.
I was watching Pirates of the Carribean 3. But then i wasnt focusing properly and found myself only watching bits with Johnny Depp in.
Okay ok, what i said in my previous entries about love. Push that aside for the following men:
1. Johnny Depp (who wouldnt!!??)
2. Heath Ledger (before that happened...)
3. Cillian Murphy (small irish actor with a big phwoar factor)
4. Jake Gylenhaal (i still love him in Donnie Darko)
5. Alan Rickman, he doesnt really count because i just love his voice.
along with steven fry, they both have nice voices. but steven frys gay anyway and bloody hillarious :)
American people have no idea who number 3,5 and steven are but oh well.
Love you all xxxx