DaisyGLam

 Not sure when it was last that i updated this thing.
truth me told life hasnt changed much.
I'm just crazier than ever now, still going mad and bottling things in.
I still have urges to want to kill people, still starving myself as i form of pain and control.
And yes ladies, you guessed it...

I'm still single.

I figured out that i havnt kissed someone in over a year now, i know Christians who wear purity rings who have kissed more than me this past year!

College sucks, i saw my friends today and they have amazing lives, they are doing so well.
Ive failed, literally. And im dreading it because i know im gonna get kicked out when it happens. I'm on the verge of that now.

Yes, so its nearly 2am. Which isnt uncommon i do most online activity around this time anyway, since i have my sleeping issues still i get bored of sitting and go on my Mac.
I was watching Pirates of the Carribean 3.  But then i wasnt focusing properly and found myself only watching bits with Johnny Depp in. 

Okay ok, what i said in my previous entries about love. Push that aside for the following men:

1. Johnny Depp (who wouldnt!!??)

2. Heath Ledger (before that happened...)

3. Cillian Murphy (small irish actor with a big phwoar factor)

4. Jake Gylenhaal (i still love him in Donnie Darko)

5. Alan Rickman, he doesnt really count because i just love his voice.

along with steven fry, they both have nice voices. but steven frys gay anyway and bloody hillarious :)

American people have no idea who number 3,5 and steven are but oh well.

Love you all xxxx

i dont want them
ever
not in a good mood.
i have to share my room with my sister
beucase i have people coming down.
im going to sneak out and go for a run
and just say i couldnt sleep.
i so badly need to excercise more.
im so flabby
:(
x

 

After 3 days of binge eating I WILL! Fast as best as I can with my parents at home. Prom was good I didn't eat anything I just danced all night, so I burned off there and I also did the tango with my set teacher.
I've put on loads of weight so ice decided to buy something for every 10 pound I loose.

XX

Kick him in the leg, till he dances with me.
And to be honest.
Walking around my village with a ball hanging out your tin-foil pants.
Watching Alan Rickman at 2am
Setting plants on fire.
Finding guine-pigs in cats mouths.
And waking up to find a drunk midget on the floor in your house.

Thats the weekend.

AND IT DIDNT INCLUDE THEM!
HAHAHA
As in, those "friends"

I forgot to say, my sister is wearing a shirt that says:

"Forget love, i wanna fall in chocolate"

Frankly i hate chocolate for all the obvious reasons. Am i simply torn between the two? 

I truelly hate the idea of 'Love'
In my opinion i care for no one but myself.
Simple :)
It's not that im selfish, or have had horrible experiences with men that puts me off.
Some may say that i havnt found 'Mr Right'
But its just that even if i did, i wouldnt care for him.
I don't particuarly need kisses to make me happy.
In my opinion... Love is a losing game.
Yes ive had bad experiencs with love, but also good ones.
Whether it was true love or not i was still fond of these people.
The point is, i convince myself i'm not worth these people or they arnt worth me and i fall out of love with them.

On a futher note i've decided on this to give up my dreams of one day finding out im a lesbian.
The truth is im a feminist, and men are pigs.
Not all men, look at russel brand and my gay friend james.
They may be wrong, but they make me laugh. :)

I love the fact that i came back from doing a grueling day of Texiles from 9:30am to 4:00pm today to find a workout DVD by Davina Macall (sp?) and some weights.
Ive been doing it for 3 hours now and its so much fun.
I love loosing weight :)
xxxx

Right went to the clothes show in Birmingham last year
Got asked to pose for a photo on the Rimmel London section by the photographer,
Not only did i get asked to pose, unlike any of the other girl who had to pay

But i only just realised that im on the Rimmel London website:

Link:

http://www.rimmellondon.com/UK/Promotions.aspx?id=209

Im at the bottom on Wednesday.
That makes me happier i guess.

It helps talking to my art teacher aswell, he tells me about his problems, its a beautiful moment.

Anyone wanna start a band?
Im starting auditions :)
xxxx
LOVE YOU ALL lolz

Just joined proana site.
I've been doing my diet since about June last year,
I've dropped from almost 10st down to under 7st.
Ive shot up again recently to just under 8 st.
When i found out i cried for hours
So thats why im dieting severly again, well starving myself.
Joining proana has helped me so much, and looking at thinspo aswell.

I like girls who arnt just thin, skinny with bones.

It would have to be Alphonse Mucha. What a man to have gone through so much, and fought so much for his country. His paintings are inspiring to me as the depict the idylic view of a woman in the eyes of a godess. Possesing the beauty of nature at hand, his illustrative techniques created art nouveue (sp?) the most modern wave of art. I love his works and his life deeply.